September 3, 2010

i see not point in living if i can't be beautiful!

Since I'm a big fat loser when it comes to committing to my loon blog, I have decided to document this past summer in photo form.

May

Me and my fantastic siblings (me, Cathy, Irene, Jimmy, Suzy) at Irene's graduation from William & Mary. We are a beautiful family.. right? Right???


Me and Max at his sister's engagement party. You can tell we love each other.


June

Brett's bertday in Williamsburg. The one with part of a shirt in his mouth is Phil.


Brett is the one who's asleep. I think he was asleep for 69% of the party.




Irene and I took Cathy to the Museum of African Art in DC. We had a lot of fun, to say the least.




Gay Pride Parade 2010 in DC.




Later that night I was called away to my friend's brother's high school grad party. We got silly.



July

Celebrating Courtney's birthday! Three of my favorite people. (Courtney, Erin, Megan, me)



Finally went to a screening of The Room this summer at the E Street Cinema. I was so close to meeting the infamous Tommy Wiseau and I'm devastated I didn't get to shake his creepy hand!


My birthday. It was pretty fab this year. And these are my ladieeees! (Megan, me, Erin, Cindy, Courtney)




August

Max's mom is the sweetest lady I know and threw me a birthday dinner at their house. I love them.




Well, friends. That just about wraps up my summer livin.

September 1, 2010

i'm like a damn phantom!

It has begun. The time every kid dreads, the time every parent cannot wait for, the time hundreds of movies and books have been written about. School time. Awful time. Death time. Whatever you want to call it. And with the successful completion of seven days of classes, my lovely sleep schedule has adjusted. Fall asleep around 5:00 AM, wake up around 9:30 AM, claw my eyes out, rinse and repeat. So for me it's back to the sadcafe.

To commemorate my first night of staying awake past three in the morning, I thought I'd resume my little blog here since I took an obvious break for the summer. Here I am world, writing from my bed. Of course from my bed. If there is one thing every single individual I have ever met  can tell you, it's I have a deep love for my bed, or any bed I can get my hands on for that matter. Friends' beds, siblings' beds, no bed is safe from my grasp. I'm a little bed fiend, a connoisseur of beds, if you will. I can't get enough of them. And as for my own bed, between the blankets and the pillows and the assortment of stuffed animals I should have thrown out years ago, my bed is my sanctuary. What more can I say? Well let's set aside my silly bed tangent and return to the pressing matter at hand. So I'm here in bedland, clicking away while my roommate slumbers peacefully by the other side of the window. I hear the occasionally sleep babble from her but mostly it's just the crickets hum tonight.

Oh Casey. You are a loon. But you're my roommate which makes you my loon roommate. Which is great. She's so endearing, buying me cute Ed Hardy lighters that change colors, making delicious guacamole from scratch, going on wild adventures through Walmart, comparing absurd boy anecdotes while sipping wine on the balcony. She makes this apartment feel comfortable.

As fantastic and lovely as Casey is, I am mad jealous of her sleeping habits. I feel like I should be able to absorb them just by living in the same room as her. How does she do it? Night after night, I see her out of the corner of my eye, dead to the world as I lay here for hours trying to figure out how to do it. I want to violently shake her awake and scream into her ear, how is it possible to fall asleep only moments after you touch your head to the pillow?! You are truly gifted.

Well I can honestly say Casey is one of the most adorable people I know. She just woke up, hopefully I'm not to blame, and asked in a her little sleepy voice if I've slept at all tonight. I inform her politely, no of course not you dingdong! She makes a little sleep sound and calls me magically, I say no, just exhausted and insane. She goes on to tell me that she just had a dream and I was in it. For her sake, I hope I was more interesting and normal in her unconscious for the past three hours than I have been in reality. And THEN, if she couldn't be any sweeter, she asks me if I ever have a seizure again if she should call an ambulance or just go with it. Aw.. (tear) that is so thoughtful. I can't say I am anywhere near as nice or inquisitive or friendly when I first come back from sleep city. No, not by a long shot.

The time is now 5:04. The sun is creeping back up over the trees, the newspapers are being delivered, and I am calling it a night. Day eight of classes has already begun and lets be honest, I can't run on three hours of sleep like I could last year when I was a young whippersnapper. I'm getting too old for this.

May 3, 2010

let's wake up the neighbors, let's turn on our amps.

It's like I think I don't even have a blog anymore. But it's summer now, so I'll have all the time in the world, no more classes, no more exams, no more worrying. Only summer living. There's not much I can coherently express right now because I've been deathly ill for the past week and my head's been in a fog. I've mostly been listening to lovely things so here's a few of the songs that I'm living by and recommend at the momment.

Neko Case- The Pharaohs
The Tallest Man on Earth- King of Spain
Edward Sharpe & the Electric Zeros- 40 Day Dream
Fleet Foxes- Oliver James
Ramona Falls- I Say Fever
Ella Fitzgerald- At Last
The Avett Brothers- Shame

Please listen.

April 12, 2010

so if ever someone says to you life isn't fair, get used to it. then you should say well it might be if folks like you would let it be.

I haven't been here in a while. It's been weird. After suffering from dehydration/possible heat stroke on Sunday morning something unhinged in my brain. What do you do when you feel like your entire life is off kilter and you can't figure how it happened or how to find a solution, or if there is even a solution? How can life do this to me, you think. I thought I had things figured out, I thought my priorities where straightened out for once. What created this horrible mental reality? How do I climb out of this maelstrom that's encompassing every significant relationship and progression and achievement I have in my life? I'll figure something out I guess.

I've discovered recently I'm afraid of routine and emotional chaos. What to do, what to do. Apparently, I'm in love with the illusion of stability when really, everything's in disarray.

I hope some combination of menthols, a bench, and a healthy supply of Iron & Wine can help.

April 8, 2010

don't try to prevent a predestined event

I'm seriously wiped out today so I'm not going to write much, just a tribute to my little sister, Cathy. We like each other:


She's fifteen today. She's getting too old. I wanted her to be little forever! She's the fourth child out of the five of us. I keep forgetting that since I'm growing up, they are too. I LOVE MY SIBLINGS A LOT.

April 7, 2010

these tee shirts were tested on animals. they didn't fit.

It's time to celebrate. I finished and presented my Spanish project today! It was a pretty legit presentation if I do say so myself, it was about native animals in Chile and they were all weird looking. So now I've been thinking about weird looking animals for a while and I thought I'd write about some.

I consider myself a lover of all animals, fluffy or venomous (although I do enjoy my hamburgers and fried chicken and what have you). The only four-legged creatures I wish to destroy are dogs. How odd, I know. I just can't stand them. It's like having a clingy boyfriend. You have to pet them all the time and give them so much attention and take them on walks seven hundred times a day and feed them their dumb food. Try to convince me that's not exactly like a pathetic, useless significant other. All other animals are wonderful especially the crazy looking ones that make you wonder how messed up their genetics are. Here are a couple of my favs. The weirdest animals are always the most interesting. The same going for people.

Komodo dragons. When I finally get my little cottage, I'm going to get one of these monsters to guard my house. They're like mini dinosaurs and can kill anything with one bite. Chomp... you're dead.


Pink fairy armadillos. Native to Argentina, I don't even know what to say about these guys they are so crazy they speak for themselves. Once I had a dream I was trying to capture a blue armadillo and make it my pet but he just kept rolling up in a ball and rolling away.


Star-nosed mole. It's pretty clear how this little mole got it's name. They find worms, mollusks, and other insecty things with their noses. I wonder what else they do with their noses. They could probably use them as suction cups and climb up walls and stuff.


Flying fox bats. They're just demon foxes with giant bat wings and evil eyes that can claw your face off. Imagine walking into a cave and being swarmed by these guys. I would probably not enjoy it.

Lion's mane jellyfish. These dudes turn completely inside-out when they're bopping around in the ocean. I always want to pet the mane looking part but them I'd most likely die.


Platypi. The only mammal that lays eggs and has clawed flippers and a bill and poisonous spurs. What is wrong with this animal? He got mixed up in the evolution of things. I fell like a bunch of different animals were thrown in a blender and this was the result.


Manatees. They're gentle creatures, endangered and harmless. They look pretty pathetic too, like dolphins with down syndrome. I hope that's not offensive.

April 6, 2010

everything will be clearer tomorrow

Today is another day bland mind day, I don't have much to say again. The only things that's really in my head is school stuff. School's becoming more of a reality lately and I know I've been slacking too much. I wear myself out worrying about schoolwork. It's the only part of my life I'm actually concerned about, I hardly worry in general. I like to just float around and whatever happens, it happens and then life keeps going and I keep floating. I take a similar approach with college except while I'm floating around I constantly think about how terrible I'm doing in classes and how much my parents will lecture me about my GPA and grad school.

Every day I think of how easy it would be to just stop college all together and run away from responsibility and my weird life. I just want to be off in the wilderness living in a little cottage on the edge of a lake or up in a mountain or on a cliff somewhere cold. I've come dangerously close to blowing all my money on a one-way ticket to Reykjavik, Iceland to live with a colony of puffins. There's nothing more tempting than a plane ticket to somewhere unknown.

That's probably part of the reason my dream is to be a pilot. Fly off to anywhere in the world. I don't like sitting still and eventually, I start to hate everything around me. I have pretty awful vision as of now so they'll never let me navigate the skies to deliver people here and there. I must fix my silly eyes first. Then I'll have complete freedom to practically live in the sky and visit new places and be surrounded by strangers. How lovely it would be to spend 80% of your life up in the clouds looking at an endless atmosphere. Well, I'm trying to achieve my silly life goal and finally applied to work at the airport near my home. I went out on a limb and practically poured out my heart in my cover letter about how I would only be happy if I could fly planes for the rest of my life. If that didn't guarantee the job, it definitely lost it. I hope they like me. I'll be so sad if they don't...

That's really all I've got right now. Longing and wistfulness. Yours forever, Rex.