so if ever someone says to you life isn't fair, get used to it. then you should say well it might be if folks like you would let it be.

I haven't been here in a while. It's been weird. After suffering from dehydration/possible heat stroke on Sunday morning something unhinged in my brain. What do you do when you feel like your entire life is off kilter and you can't figure how it happened or how to find a solution, or if there is even a solution? How can life do this to me, you think. I thought I had things figured out, I thought my priorities where straightened out for once. What created this horrible mental reality? How do I climb out of this maelstrom that's encompassing every significant relationship and progression and achievement I have in my life? I'll figure something out I guess.

I've discovered recently I'm afraid of routine and emotional chaos. What to do, what to do. Apparently, I'm in love with the illusion of stability when really, everything's in disarray.

I hope some combination of menthols, a bench, and a healthy supply of Iron & Wine can help.